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2 months of craziness!

Ah Boi Says:

So it's been 2 months!
Today Dearie came over in the afternoon..and I was engrossed in something.
She shocked me by touching my back and I JUMPED!
Turned around and was shocked to see her there, laughing away.
I was particularly surprised as she had told me that she wasn't coming over.
Oh well, it was a pleasant surprise though.

Didn't really do much with her today..we wanted to watch "Re-cycle", but we both felt the show was rather crappy, so we fell asleep instead.
ROFL..
Had dinner then sent her home.
Had a long talk with Dearie about something under her block.

Somehow, I felt that I have changed into somebody I no longer understand.
I really don't know who I am now.
Ever since school started..I've become rather unstable emotionally.
Flaring up at the slightest irritation..becoming quite withdrawn at times..mood swings..
Dearie told me that I'm becoming increasingly scary..and I know it's true.
I better control myself..sigh..I don't want to do something I will regret.
Maybe it's the pressure.
Maybe it's just me.
Maybe...I'm going crazy.
I don't know.

Here's a song I was listening on the way home earlier, while thinking about what we talked about..

Staind - So Far Away

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me

I've changed so much..
Yet, slowly I'm reverting back to who I was..
I don't want that to happen..
Please, Lord..
Help me.....

We are unbreakable.... ,