The Love we Are Having ♥

Stress and Irritated !!!

Just reach home from my attachment.. today it's PM shift and i thought i'm able to slack a little because CI is not around.. However i'm wrong ..

Today i used a lot of brain storming and exploring.. did subcu today and it's rather scary because i'm poking someone.. luckily the needle is small or else i'll be shivering already.. then SN asked me so many questions regarding the injection and the indication..

Served medication as well with the same SN.. i've got to explain all the medication to her and how am i going to administer.. learn a lot of drugs today because when i open up the medication chart she would ask me like the Generic Name and Trade name plus the indication..

All our shift people were being tortured with all the questions being asked..
though she kept questioning us i think that is good because we are able to learn from it..

This weekend i will have to memorize all the medication found in the ward itself plus case study to do and the medication that i'm going to serve for my cubicle patient.. haiz.. so busy right.. CI wanted us to do as it was our assignment at the same time we are able to learn.. she set very high expectation from us and by the end if this attachment we are able to bring something back to school..

Feeling irritated because i failed my NS2 and i had to retake it.. this holiday i've got to study again.. hate it when it comes to retaking of test.. can't blame anyone else because i never study for the last paper.. haiz.. just plain lazy to do.. Believe that i didn study already?

It's been almost a week that i never meet and didn get to chat with him on the phone already.. miss him so much.. got so much things to tell him though. sad and as well the happy ones.. haha..
can't even spare a minute to talk to him over the phone.. so irritating.. it's either he's busy or i'm busy sometime he called be so late that i'm asleep already.. feeling sad and very sad.. nvm, i've got to be understanding right? forget it la.. in future there will be more work means more busy.. Get use to it..

People who got boyfriend doesn't mean that we don't feel lonely.. they still need some friends to talk to and go out with..
it weren't fair to me when some of you attitude changes towards me over time..
it weren't fair that u guys do not talk to me about the unhappiness in you...
i'm not a mind reader and i do not know what you guys are thinking...
i know it's not the same anymore from the past...
Why it turn out to be this way... WHY?
Someone please give me the answer.. I can't be thinking about it all the time and start questioning myself and finding answers...

just thought of the past matters and emotions of anger and sadness arises..

We are unbreakable.... ,